I can’t believe it’s been 9 months since my family and I moved to Fort Collins, CO to plant Missio Dei.
These past 9 months have been a blast…we have met some amazing people and have seen the Lord do great things. It’s also been a very difficult 9 months. I’ve learned many lessons that I couldn’t have learned in any other way, other than what has transpired during this season. These lessons, although brutal to experience, have served as character building tools that will stay with me for the rest of my life.
The #1 truth I’ve learned through these difficulties; is that my identity must be found in Jesus, not in anything I do for Him, including pastoring. Without realizing it my identity had become about what I did for Jesus instead of who I am in Jesus. Pastoring has been my life long ambition, it’s all I’ve ever wanted to do since the day I began to follow Jesus as a 15 year old freshman in High School. I achieved that dream, and for the last 7 years before moving to Colorado I was given the opportunity to not only pastor but to get paid for it. Then we moved to Fort Collins and not only have I had to get a very entry level job, but I’ve had face the reality that most people here do not view me as their pastor. I’m just a dude who works as a telemarketer and is “trying” to start a church.
Although pastoring is an amazing privilege and a gift from God; it will let you down. The people you pastor will let you down, the leaders you serve with will let you down, the whole pastor gig will let you down, and if you aren’t finding your identity in Jesus and the gospel you will be left with a whole lot of discouragement against…Christians, the Church, and your calling.
The way to fight against this disappointment is by finding your worth in Jesus. This not only applies to pastors, who are having an identity crisis, but to everyone of us who struggles with finding our value in something other than Jesus and the gospel. Those of us who have propped up functional saviors in our life only to find ourselves exerting all kinds of energy fooling ourselves into believing that they are giving us what we can only find in Christ.
You will face an identity crisis today, something or someone will attempt to convince you that Jesus isn’t enough and that you must add to what He’s already done for you by pretending to be something you’re not or putting on a performance to impress others and ultimately God.
Don’t fall for this trap. It will eat you alive, kill your relationships, and cause your fellowship with Jesus to be broken.
May you find your identity in Jesus and Him alone.